What Do I Fear?

Photograph © Matt Stanford

What do I fear?

Instantly a fragment echoes in my mind

…perfect love casts out fear…

I am overwhelmed by guilt…

Surely if I really love God I would not fear…

In that moment I back away from honesty

Curl up once more in foetal position

Denying Truth

Leaving me unable to assess and address Fearfulness

For, truth be told, I do fear

The full Scripture reads

“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.’ 1 Jn 4v18 NKJ

I love God as much as I am able

I am perfected in Love

But Love is not yet perfected in me

I am a work in progress

Therefore I Fear

I need not, but I do

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it.

Nelson Mandela

Aristotle suggests the middle ground between confidence and fear is courage

Therefore

To take one step, no matter how small,

To turn and face Fear

Is courage

To name Fear and be willing

To explore the root of it

Is courage

To breathe the Holy Spirit calm into

That tangled tight-hold grip

Fear can have over us

Is to re-establish the Lordship of God in our lives

Fear

Steals energy

It saps confidence

Extinguishes Light and Hope

Fear is one root of Anger

Main one I would say

Fear of being misunderstood,

Fear of being controlled

Fear of being hurt

When next Anger flares

To ask

“Of what am I afraid?”

Is courage

Carl Jung drives a stake in the ground

Here, where my fear is.

He writes:

Where the fear, there is your task! – C.G. Jung

Words and Pictures © Denise Stanford 2010

~ by Denise Within the Vine on 02/06/2010.

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